OK so I listened to my own post.
I basically slowed right down - played a few freerolls to respect the game again - stop trying to make a quick buck etc (a kind of mini punishment)
I then play NL over last 3 nights and make back the £1500 I had dropped but then see what i consider a fish on 20 40 fixed limit and loose £600 to him so still in a bit of a hole.
However, confirmed my CPC pacakge today so I am definately booked and received the difference between £10K EUR and £10k$ pacakge in my accounts and then also 2k$ of the 10k$ package was cash also - I had not counted these figure previous so they go in the profit column and give me a bit of a roll to play with again.
For any grinders out there - Crapto have loads of freerolls on MPPs into events like CPS sats 40k sats etc.
I just spoke with Brennan on MSN and if i was full time 1 2 NL I would deffo play them.
Basically the 40k costs £120 to enter - I reckon the freeroll is 6 seats gtd with 180 runners so an average player wins 1 in 30 - lets assume you are above average then 1 in 20. This is 20* 50 mpps = £120 entry for every 1000 mpps - good value in my book and hopeful helpful for some readers.
For people who turn noses up at freerolls then I won over 8000$ dollars from them last year